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PATRICIA
SMITH, lauded by critics as “a testament to the power of words
to change lives,” is the author of four acclaimed poetry
volumes—“Teahouse of the Almighty” (a 2005 National Poetry
Series selection), “Close to Death,” “Life According to
Motown” and “Big Towns, Big Talk.” Her work has been published
in The Paris Review, TriQuarterly, and other literary
journals/anthologies, and performed around the world,
including Carnegie Hall, the Poets Stage in Stockholm,
Rotterdam’s Poetry International Festival, the Aran Islands
International Poetry and Prose Festival, the Bahia Festival,
the
Schomburg Center, the Sorbonne in Paris and on tour in
Germany, Austria and Holland.
A four-time individual champion on the National
Poetry Slam, Smith has also been a featured poet on HBO’s
Def Poetry Jam and has performed three one-woman plays,
one produced by Nobel Prize winner Derek Walcott.
In addition to her poetic works, Smith is also
the author of “Africans in America,” a companion volume to the
groundbreaking PBS documentary; Publishers Weekly
called the book “a monumental research effort wed with fine
writing…ultimately shaped by Smith’s beautiful narrative,” and
Michelle Cliff of the San Jose Mercury News said, “With
its vivid language and historical integrity, ‘Africans in
America’ is a major contribution to this country’s written
history.” Smith also penned the children’s book “Janna and the
Kings,” which won Lee & Low Books’ New Voices Award.
Smith is currently at work on “Fixed on a
Furious Star,” a biography of Harriet Tubman; also upcoming is
a new poetry volume, “Blood Dazzler,” centered around the
human devastation caused by Hurricane Katrina, and a young
adult novel, “The Journey of Willie J.” She is the 2007 winner
of the Chatauqua Literary Journal Award in poetry.
She has served as a Cave Canem faculty member, a Bruce McEver
Visiting Chair in Writing at Georgia Tech University, and
writer-in-residence at the Eugene O’Neill Theater Center. In
2006, during a ceremony at Chicago State University’s
Gwendolyn Brooks Center, Smith was inducted into the National
Literary Hall of Fame for Writers of African Descent.
The Persona: Patricia Smith interviewed by
Cherryl
Floyd-Miller
Whether she is assuming the voice of a Hurricane Katrina
victim, a skinhead, or a small child observing Saturday
morning barbershop rituals, on a stage, she is a current you
get caught up in. If you have not had the experience of her
transformative live “voice,” you have missed a critical layer
of her art. She is a four-time National Slam winner and a
highly sought teacher and performance artist. Make no
assumptions about her ability to present the well-crafted poem
on the page, though. Patricia Smith has become a master of the
persona poem. The National Poetry Series winner (for
Teahouse of the Almighty) talked to me recently from her
New York
home about crafting in persona.
CFM:
I think that you and the poet Ai are two of the most gifted
persona poets of our times. I want to talk to you about where
the whole notion of persona comes from for you. Is that
something you think you choose, does it choose you, or does
something else happen?
PS:
It’s a couple of things. When I was growing up – I’m
originally from Chicago and from the part of Chicago – the
Westside – that everyone tells you to stay away from … my
parents came from the South, and I’m an only child. They were
very, very protective, but their way of protecting me or
introducing me to the world was keeping me away from it. So
there was a lot of solitude. I mean, it wasn’t unhappy or
anything, but it was just that I spent a lot of time on my
own. Initially, my parents weren’t very good at answering
questions about that outside world either, but so much of what
I learned came from television and just came from my
imagination. Every book I’d read, I’d want to be that person
the next time. Because we weren’t really connected to our
community (we were connected to the mainstream more), a lot of
the images that I had were mainstream – you know, white folks
doing this, and you know this is what life is supposed to be …
but why are we here. My mother was just kind of in awe
of white people her whole life. She had the viewpoint that,
well, you know, be good to them and they’ll do good things for
you. So, a lot of the early things that I did … I had this
wire theme notebook, and I think I probably was about, I don’t
know, nine or ten years old, and I used to fill this
wire-theme notebook with the continuing adventures of this
persona that I had developed, and her name was Erica, (‘cause
it was the coolest thing I could ever think of – Erica). And
she was white and she had blue eyes and really dark hair,
which I thought was a cool combination. She was a cheerleader
and her mother was a doctor and her father was a lawyer and
she had six brothers, and she was homecoming queen and head
cheerleader and blah-blah-blah, you know. No one exists
like this, but I thought that this was kind of fulfilling the
life that I wanted on paper. So my way of getting out in the
world was to become these other characters.
I guess my way of getting out into the world was to develop
these other characters – become these other characters. And I
guess the way I really started writing seriously in persona is
because when I got introduced to poetry, I was working as a
newspaper reporter. I’d be working with facts during the day
and you see these stories, as I think does anyone does who is
tied into the news, even if it’s just reading the daily
newspaper … you see these stories that don’t make sense. You
know, they sadden you or they anger you. You look for some way
to process it. Those of us who process creatively are very
blessed to have that other side that we can always turn to.
So, I would see a news story and I would think, Well, where
was the person in this story before the instance of this
story. Where did they go after the story? It’s like you
place yourself at prospective place in the story and try to
write your way out of it. A lot of times it would be almost
like an exercise for me.
But then it sort of became … I thought that too many people
who write don’t think about what happened long before that
prospective entry point. I mean, when you sit down to think
about September 11, or your grandmother or being carjacked or
whatever, there are millions of people sitting down at the
same time about the write the same thing. I mean, we don’t
give enough thought to what makes our poems stand out. It’s
very important to me that someone eventually (and I don’t even
think I’ve reached that point yet) will see what I’ve written
and know that it’s me whether or not my name is on it. Working
in persona just expanded my options so much. I can write from
my I feel/I believe/I need/I see viewpoint, or I can do
that from several people’s viewpoints. I just thought that was
part of being a writer. I never really get writer’s block or
something. I never really do, because if I’m ever disgusted
writing as me, I can put on these other shoes and go, “Hey, I
don’t care if you don’t like this poem. It’s not really me,
anyway.”
I skipped over this part, but my father was a real
storyteller. He was used to sitting on porches in Arkansas
entertaining everyone. So when he came to Chicago, I was his
audience. He would ask me questions when we’d read the paper,
you know, he’d say, “Well, where was this person going?” and
I’d say, “Well, it doesn’t say where they were going.” Put
yourself in their shoes; see what they saw. That to me was
magical. It was really magical. In the beginning, I had a
reliance on persona pieces because it’s an escape, but it
can’t keep you from writing about yourself. You didn’t have to
be yourself.
So, there was a progression with self, but not very well. I
moved outward and began to write about other things. Persona
helps develop the poet’s eye. Then when you come back to
yourself with that knowledge, you can write about yourself in
a way that is more insightful and probing than before.
CFM:
Are there ever any scary moments when you’re doing the persona
poem and you think that maybe this is you, or that persona has
so much in common with you that the distinguishing line is
very thin?
PS:
Well, one piece was the skinhead poem. The skinhead poem I
wrote because when I was living in New England, somebody
painted a swastika on Plymouth Rock. And if you’ve ever gone
through New England, it’s like, you don’t mess with any of
their symbols. They lost their minds. They were looking for
this person. They never found the person but the group they
thought was responsible was called the White Youth League. It
was some Aryan Nation group or something. So I read this
interview, and this guy is spewing all this hatred – blacks,
Jews, gays, and whatever. I thought, at some point, we started
at a common point. He moved in that direction. I moved in
another direction. So, I wanted to write a poem that would
bring us back to a common area. And so I wrote it, and I
thought it was an exercise, and I like it – liked what came
out – and I started reading it. Then people would tell me how
strange it would be for them to see this skinhead voice come
from this black woman, and I thought, oh, I understand that.
Then, an accent, some weird accent, started working its way
into the poem. I didn’t know where it came from. It’s like … I
finally decided the problem with persona is, eventually, if
you do it correctly, the poem will begin to tell you how it
wants to sound. Okay? I’m imagining what it’s like to be this
person, and you’re headed in the wrong direction, and I think
sometimes, the poem brings you back into line. With that one,
I think I got a little bit more into its head than I wanted
to. You think that you can do so much and cut it off. Then the
accent started coming and I found myself having a hard time
pulling out of the poem when it was done. I think that’s also
happened to me with another poem I have about an undertaker.
Because I realize that when I read the poem, there’s a danger
that there are a lot of people who have had that experience
exactly. You don’t realize how close you’ve gotten to the
persona, because in the beginning, it’s just an active
imagination. But if you hit it, it’s a scary thing. Even when
I write about myself … not long ago, I made the commitment
that there was nothing that I wouldn’t write about, because
it’s not just the recreational act, it’s the way you move your
life forward. For me, even if I wasn’t publishing anything,
even if no one ever read this stuff, I would be writing poems
and sticking them in kitchen drawers. I would just be reading
them when I needed them and putting them back, because that’s
kind of how I move my life forward. It’s my response to
things. I take on difficult personas because it’s like solving
a puzzle. It’s like, how close can I get to this person? How
dead-on can I get to them until they start to speak to me and
tell me where they want the poem to go?
CFM:
You said you’ve made the commitment that there’s nothing that
you won’t write about. I know many writers have encountered
the taboo of personal subject matter and wrestled with the
possible consequences. I remember once in a class I was
teaching in Oregon, a little second-grade boy came to me
afterwards and asked, “Do you care what other people think
when you write your stuff? Is there anybody you would stop
writing for?” He clarified his question by asking what if
there were something that were true that you wanted to write
about, but you didn’t want your family to know. I had to
really think about that. Before he asked this, I had always
believed my story is mine to tell without apology. I realized
there was probably nothing I wouldn’t write about. After he
asked me this, though, I knew there were definitely at least
three people whose feelings and opinions could make me not
publish something I’d written. Have you found yourself
wrestling with this decision in some way?
PS:
There was a regional Cave Canem class I taught, and one of the
topics that we talked about was taboo. That went from writing
about violence and sex, to writing about things that you know
are going to involve another person or someone close to you.
It was a memoir writing class where you encountered some sort
of abuse or something like that, and you wonder, Do I leave
this out, is this person still alive? Is this person going to
see this book? … I think you have to just keep coming back
to: Are you writing because it’s something you enjoy doing,
and you get a little thrill out of seeing your name in print,
and you’re onstage, and you like the people’s upturned faces
and the fact that they’re all listening to you? OR are you
writing because you have to? If you’re writing because you
have to, the first line of business is to make sure the people
closest to you realize that. My mother to this day … the
concept of writing for a living does not fly with her. Some
people just really see it as a game. Something you do if
you’ve got some extra time and you want to fiddle with a pen
and some paper. Until you sit down with people who are close
to you and say, “I need for you to understand what this
writing is doing for me.” Then when you begin the process of
writing something that includes them, you can harbor some
notion that they might understand it. If they don’t, you have
to keep asking yourself what the writing is doing for you. You
said maybe there are things you wouldn’t publish. Maybe in
that scenario, it’s enough to just get it down on paper and
share it with the person involved with the understanding that
it won’t go anywhere else. For me, it’s enough to have people
come up to you after a reading, or coming up holding your book
and saying, “This has happened to me. I have felt this way,
and didn’t know anybody else did.” At that point, it becomes a
mission of sorts. There are all these people who don’t know
that they have a second throat. There are people who might
look at me and say, “Oh, she’s got all these great things
happening, and I wish my life could be that great.” My life is
not great. My son was in jail, and I had a big custody battle
for my granddaughter, and a failed marriage, a mother I don’t
completely understand, and my father was murdered at a real
critical time in my life and … those are things that you can
look at the veneer of a person and not see. I think it’s
important to use the throat we have to make others realize
they have it too. To say, well, yeah, this is what I went
through with my son. My son understands. He would say, “When I
was locked up, there were people who never got visitors. Or
people who talked about their parents being too ashamed of
them to come.” I really kinda feel like every person or every
audience who picks up a poem you’ve written and reads it, you
know … there’s somebody out there who needs, who can use,
everything from your voice. There are people who need to not
only know what you can do creatively, but a little bit of what
you’re going through as a person, and how important it’s been
to you to use that other throat. To pick up that pen and say,
maybe I can’t make a difference this way, but at least I can
put myself in a safer place. Sometimes, we write in order to
get to a safer place in our heads. We can do that not only for
ourselves, but for other people. Some of the questions like, I
was abused by an uncle, you might say to yourself … Do I
write about that? Do I show it to any other family members who
may or may not be aware of it? When I think of that, I
think about this woman I used to see at the meat market all
the time and she was constantly battered – I mean, an eye
closed, bruises on the side of her face. I remember my mother
kind of shooing me to the side and saying, “Nothing’s wrong.
It’s none of our business.” I think when you really, seriously
call yourself a poet, your business kind of becomes
everybody’s business. It’s not just the poet really. It’s the
short story writer, the essayist, or whatever … it’s just as
public as being an actress or something. Your life is right
out there if you choose to put it out there. If you’re not
breaking that barrier and writing about things that are going
to may people say, “Hey, that may be an option for me,” then
you’re not fulfilling all the possibilities you have as a
writer.
CFM:
What do you think is or should be the mission of persona poems
in our current times?
PS:
I think we tend to distance ourselves from whole segments of
the population. I had someone ask me at one time, “Well, how
can you write a persona poem in the voice of someone who is
not of your race or your social class?” It’s interesting when
they ask black people about writing personas in white voices,
because that is our reality. I mean, that’s our
mainstream. Those are images we were bombarded with from the
time we could walk and talk … of course, we’re familiar with
that. That’s all we see. I think the persona poem moves us out
of our space, moves us out of our comfort zone where we’re
almost forced to take a really hard look at another life.
Whether it be something you’re just doing for the fun of it,
like, you know, wow, what’s it like to be Little Richard for a
day, or you’re sitting next to some woman who is clutching
like twenty bags or something on the subway, you know that her
whole life is in those bags, and you realize just how close
everyone’s life is to your own. They may look really distant.
You may say, “Oh my God, I’d never be a bag lady.” But
starting to look at that persona and really examining it
honestly, you realize how close we all are, and you may really
be one paycheck away from that. So, it kind of forces us
outside of ourselves – which we should all in a perfect world
do naturally anyway. We should strive to relate to whoever it
is that we meet, or we don’t meet, anyway. I mean, that’s what
the human race is supposedly all about, but we don’t do that.
Working in persona – if you do it enough – kind of makes that
a second nature, even if it’s somebody you will never write
about. You tend to take a closer look at their lives because
you’re used to doing that in your creative work.
CFM:
Part of what makes you such a good persona poet is the
“believability” factor. The voices you give us are credible
and so we hang on to them to find out more about what makes
them human, to discover small pieces of our own
realities may have some connection to your personas. What do
you think beyond that credibility factor makes a good
persona poem? Is there such a thing as a good persona poem,
and one that is not so good?
PS:
At one time, I heard Toni Morrison say that all of her novels,
every single one of them, began with a question. The novel
itself was her attempt to answer the question. Of course, she
didn’t have those answers when she began. I’ve also heard
people talk about persona and all of the research you have to
do. You know, if you’re going to write a poem as a fireman,
you have to go figure out what is it really that a fireman
really does and what’s all of the equipment called and all of
that. That’s kind of ridiculous. It’s really a matter of
letting your curiosity get the best of you. It should be
something you’re naturally curious about. You may sit and
think, “Oh that would make a good poem because …” but if it’s
not something you’re sparked by personally, it’s going to
sound forced, and it’s not going to sound like you give a damn
one way or the other if it works.
For me, I can’t worry about poetic structure. I don’t worry
about how it’s going to look on the page. In the beginning,
it’s just kind of a stream of consciousness thing. It’s like …
listening to a conversation or listening to this person talk.
Sometimes, I don’t even start to take things out of it until
I’ve done it in front of an audience. That’s kind of what my
revision process is like. It’s kind of like, Well, that
didn’t feel good in the mouth, and that wouldn’t occur
naturally in a conversation. I start to pull back things
that way.
I think that natural curiosity is important. If you’ve ever
seen a white person trying to do a black persona and they’re
going back and forth trying to figure out, “Do I do the voice
or the accent?” – you know … I might do something as a
southern person or in an accent, but I don’t do the accent.
The persona has to be strong enough in what it says, not
necessarily how it says it. I’m speaking from the position of
somebody who does a lot of readings. That’s not what you’re
concerned with. It’s like, for these three minutes, I’m going
to make you feel like this person is sitting here talking to
you, so much so, that you’ll forget that you’re at a poetry
reading or that I’m on a stage doing this for you or that
you’re holding this book in this hand and you’re reading this
piece.
So, if I have to pick one thing, I’d say it’s an overriding
curiosity on the part of the poet. There’s a lot of times when
you’ll see some big event happen, like, you know, September 11
or Hurricane Katrina, and immediately a thousand poets are
headed for their computers, and they’re going to write
something. What I said about finding the unexpected entry
point, that’s where the persona lies. It’s not always the
point that you think it should be. You think okay, well, I’m
going to write a poem in the voice of the victims of Hurricane
Katrina. I have a series of poems now in the voice of a dog
that was left tied to a cypress tree. It’s attempting to
understand, you know, “Where’s Mudear?” You know, “If I bark
this way, Mudear usually comes out and gives me this.” And
just kinda trying on all the shoes of a story until you find
the shoes that are the most uncomfortable. That’s the one
that’s going to stand up and make people take notice. It’s not
always just saying I’m going to write a poem in persona, but
picking the persona that will make that poem different from
all the other poems that are being written about the same
subject.
CFM:
One of the things we have in common is that we create in
different genres. I think that persona might drive some of
your work in other genres, too. I can definitely see it in
theatre pieces, but I think it might be across the board. I’m
going to ask, is there a Patricia Smith persona? If so, when
do you think that persona gets turned on and off in your
process? Like, I would love to see the poem written by
Patricia Smith about the persona Patricia Smith.
PS:
Ohhhh, would you now? I think that persona is probably
an evolving persona. I guess when I sit down to write
something about myself, the persona is lurking there. I’m kind
of afraid to let the whole thing out. When writing about
something that happened to me personally, it’s usually about
an event. It’s about somebody in my life or some snapshot of
something that’s happened. I always have in mind who at this
point I believe I am. That includes some triumphs, a lot of
failures … they don’t really come out unless they are relevant
to whatever snapshot I’m writing. If I’m writing something
about my family or a moment from my past and my mother walks
through … then what I realize is that my mother and I really
don’t know each other very well and don’t show any inclination
toward doing that … That’s a really hard conclusion to come
to, but it’s an essential part of my persona right now. It’s
not something I’ve sat down to write about yet, because I’m
still right in the midst of it and don’t know what’ll happen
if I put pen to paper on that. It took a while for me to write
about my father after my father was murdered. It took about
four years before A) I finished a really honest poem about
him, and B) I’m still trying to figure out how much of my
father is in me. That persona … I guess I’m a little
frightened by it, but it’s there, and I know it’s coming to
the surface eventually. It’s complicated; it feels like I’m in
the eye of a storm and once it passes over, and I don’t know
how much damage it’s going to do.
CFM:
Any tricks of the trade you can give to people to talk to them
about how to enter the realm of writing a persona poem? What’s
the Patricia Smith process? Do you sit and close your eyes and
write the poem (or let the poem write you)? What is the whole
process of writing in persona about?
PS:
Thinking over the ones that are clearest to me and the ones
that have been the most successful, they all kind of started
with just having the persona say something that’s important to
them. If you have developed a poet’s eye, or a writer’s eye or
a poet’s ear, you’re going to let them keep talking. It’s not
something like, “Oh, you know, I’m a fireman, and I get up
every day and I go to …” You don’t want them talking
necessarily about their process, unless their process is
something like burying someone or doing makeup for someone who
is dead. It’s just not enough. No matter how intriguing the
job is or how intriguing their day might be, it’s not enough.
It’s not enough to say, “I’ve picked the ideal persona” and
then just write a plain poem with them in that space.
There’s got to be some wrinkle in the life of the person
you’re writing about. Something they’re angry about. There’s a
texture to it. What’s sparking you to write the persona and
what’s sparking the persona to talk to you? A lot of
times, it’s not just the job or whatever. It’s something
that’s happened in their life that’s making them talk, that
has them angered or sad or about to jump off of a building.
You put them in a situation that interesting.
People think, first of all, that fact that they’re writing in
persona is a big deal. If they find a persona that no one has
thought about, that’s a big deal. But that’s still not enough.
The persona has to be engaged in something that’s also
interesting. So, you’ve got three things that you have to deal
with. First of all, you’ve got to make a commitment to writing
in persona. Then you have to have a person that’s not just
your run-of-the-mill person. Then the person has got to be
engaged in something interesting. To have those three balls in
the air sometimes is difficult. There have been a lot of
people who say, I’m going to write a persona poem. They
say, This is a housewife. They use the pronoun I, and
that’s it for them. Nothing exciting happens for this
housewife … I wait for my husband to come home. I fix his
dinner. I resent him. And then what?
If you can change the pronoun and make it a third person and
it’s not interesting for you, making it persona is not going
to make it any more interesting. To me. if you make sure that
the persona is in some kind of energetic situation, the first
line always comes to you. Talking about the undertaker,
when a bullet enters the brain, the head explodes. Now
that’s going to make you sit up and take notice because he’s
talking about something that he has to do that’s a problem for
him. So, you’re plopped down right in the middle of his drama.
You’re immediately engaged. That’s something that’s really
important that I don’t think a lot of people think through.
For a long time, I tended to put a tiptoe in my poems. I’d set
them up too much. The poem that I have about the barbershop.
If you look in the book, there’s this whole stuff about, “It’s
a Saturday morning, and here’s what’s going on around the
barber shop, and here’s who’s walking around, and this is what
the barber shop looks like …” I found that when I performed,
I skipped all of that and just got right to the voice. That
was a lesson I gave to myself. You don’t drop a persona right
in the middle of an ordinary poem. It’s a sign that you don’t
really think your persona is strong enough yet, so you have to
surround it by all this other stuff. If you find yourself
doing that, the problem is not in the poem; it’s in the
persona. You have to make your persona say something that’s
going to bring people to you. I always imagine somebody out in
the hall at a reading buying books or going for a drink
something, and you need to get them to run back into the room
and say, “What? What was that? What did she say? What?” That’s
always in the back of my mind. There’s got to be a couple of
layers of drama; and the persona’s got to be right in the
middle of a drama of its own.
CFM:
One of the other things you do that’s really nice is
maintaining some sense of authenticity, because you don’t
alter the language once you’re inside of the persona. If
somebody wants to say “ain’t,” then they say “ain’t.” You
don’t clean it up. That lends itself very easily to the world
of theatre. What made you pursue theatre? Or did theatre come
first and get pushed back for poetry? How did that whole
collaboration evolve?
PS:
During a reading in Cambridge, Massachusetts, somebody came up
to me and said they were studying with Derek Walcott. They
wanted to bring him to my next reading. The next reading I did
Derek Walcott was there. He had been exploring the idea of
poetic theatre. And that makes sense for him, because he’s
always has these wonderful sweeping epics. We talked a little
afterwards and he told me that he had a theatre that he was
programming. I had done a lot of narrative poems; I had done a
lot of persona pieces. He started visualizing a show of linked
persona poems. There was kind of a narrative thread running
through them, but not really, but it was something that could
be developed with a little work between the poems.
So, Boston University Playwrights Theatre started working on
this with me. It was just me and a musician – a guitarist and
some technical people that we talked to about lighting and
things. The thing that was most challenging, and where I
really had to stand up for myself, was … I had this director,
and she wanted me to do these pieces kind of emoting to the
back row but looking over the audience’s heads to some weird
spot on the back wall. That drove me crazy. I think I did one
show before I said, you know, the audience is right here. Part
of what I like to do even during readings is kind of like
break that wall, so it’s not like I am poet, you are
audience and we shall never meet, but kind of coming out
to the audience sometimes, or even something as simple as
leaving the microphone. I said, “I can’t do this like this. If
there is an audience right here at my feet, then I have to
talk to them.” We tussled over that and then we were fine.
Lo and behold, it was reviewed as theatre. I went, “Oh, that
was easy.” People said, “We didn’t know you had an acting
background.” I don’t. If you hand me something that you’ve
written, I can’t do it … because I don’t know what sparked
you. I don’t know where they [the poems] came from. Every one
of these poems, I know what made me write them, so it’s easy
for me to get back to that moment. So that’s what got me to
thinking that what I was doing as a poet and what I had
imagined as this totally different world of theatre were not
that far apart at all.
It’s always in my head when I’m writing that this is another
avenue that’s available. I’d love to sit down with a
playwright and say, “What are the possibilities? What’s
missing? What else is out there.” If you really are
impassioned about writing, then you should want to write in as
many ways as you can. I don’t see why we box ourselves. We’re
always in a rush to specialize. It’s like I’ve got to call
myself something, I can’t just be a writer … it’s more
impressive to say “I’m a playwright,” or it’s more impressive
to say, “I’m a poet” (well … it’s not that impressive to say
I’m a poet …), but I don’t see how anyone can write and not
delve into these other areas. It’s right there. It’s a big
deal when I’m teaching a poetry class to tell people, “Ookay,
the poem is like a snapshot, but the people moving through
that poem existed before the poem and will exist after. So who
are they? Where are they going next? What are they doing? What
are they thinking?” Stretch your poem a little bit in each
direction and the poem could become a short story just like
that. All you need to do is figure out the form. You could
even take a scene out of a play and turn it into a poem. It’s
frustrating to me how much talented people are perfectly
content to stay in a box. First of all, what we do is
exciting. But even if you’re going to the next chapter, the
next poem, the next scene, it’s a blank canvas. How many
people can wake up and say that their lives are different
every day?
CFM:
Are you a writer, period, or do you feel like I’m primarily a
poet who opens herself to all these other possibilities?
PS:
I will say I’m a writer. I’ve had a couple of struggles. One
was that I got introduced to poetry by getting up on stage and
doing it. So, it’s taken forever to be known as something
other than a performer. The essential element in everything is
the poetry. If I was forced to pick something to call myself,
I would pick “poet,” but “writer” is fine for now. What
makes the other writing successful is that I see things with a
poet’s eye and I hear things with a poet’s ear. Rhythm is
always important to me. Finding a musical way to say things
without it sounding phony and strained … there’s a line there.
Seeing things as the poet sees things becomes inherent.
XTRA
FILTHY SEX
All hail to
holes. The visible ones must be filled promptly
in any number of
moist and scenic ways. The plot of this
cinematic gem:
solo syllable grunt, watery florescence,
peeling nylon.
The soundtrack is the body being rude,
popping its
cork, smoking its unfiltered cigs. We have no
choice but to
make jittery giggle at this string of slurpy,
urgent fucks,
this twist again like we did last summer.
No one speaks.
This is love at its sleekest simple, oh oh
baby, holy shit,
drop and deliver. One languid blowjob,
electric and
tight-cut, sets you to squirming. Pull back
to wide, and the
whole woman is a hole, her lover’s pubic
hair dusted with
lilac glitter. Punching the snowy motel
set dim, we turn
to each other, two lumps of domestic
warmth under way
too many sheets. We press bellies,
align breathing.
We are both very old, much too sleepy
to search for
holes. Filth is so sweet when it waits.
LOOKING FOR BODIES
I.
Slowly push the door open with your foot
because wood that has been wet for so
long
gives to touch, imitates flesh.
Do not kick the door open,
no matter how weirdly your heart drums—
there may be something all wrong behind
it.
Push and immediately revel
in what could be ordinary, if ordinary
was—
a crusted saucepan, toppled rockers,
pine framed portraits of freshly
baptized babies, old homes, toothy aunts.
Allow yourself a lunatic smile as you
spot
the bright ghosts of skirts and
workshirts,
or the spiraled grace of decapitated
dolls
spinning lazily, bumping your knees,
all those signs of ritual and undone
days.
Eventually you will need these
diversions,
you will lock your fractured heart upon
them,
because what you will see next will hurt
you
long and aloud. The monstered smell sings
her out of hiding, and at first you
believe
that one doll, plumper than the others
and still intact, survived the deluge,
but then you—
II.
guide the gold of her into
your arms blessing the droop
and blown skin marveling
at the way her soul rides
slickly on the outside of
everything how it ripples
the water how it so deftly
damns your hands
CHARACTER STUDY
As soon as I scripted a line that blessed
him
with a functioning heart, he strode naked
out of my novel, squeezed his squirming
head
through the space in a double-spaced line
and gaped at me, eyes wounded by my
indecision.
He shoved at a weakened verb and ripped
the prose wide open, bled twisted smell
on the keys,
laughed maniacally at the optimistic
progression
of page numbers. His huge mouth, having
existed
as both empty howl and sputtering door
slammed
shut, was crammed with misplaced teeth.
He was nude and ashy, swathed in stiff
denim,
his voice base gravel, then rootless and
defiant,
his eyes pulsed gray, bottomless black,
flat green
with flecks of spittle, his height
wavered, his flat
tattooed gut pouted, then didn’t. He was
scarred
by every change I’d made, every
strike-through,
cut/paste, backspace, delete, all the
unleased
betrayal that roars through prose. I
built him
from a knowing of adjectives, piled on
detail
and declaration, and now he is overdone,
dragging
all that weight and wheezing when he
breathes.
The boy patiently loads his pockets with
stones,
bottle caps and jagged pieces of glass,
waiting
for the moment when the skin of my neck
is exposed.
Only 11, he scans me with man eyes and
says it,
claiming my nights, advancing the plot in
a way
that can’t be undone. He says: Give me
a name.
THE BLOOD SONNETS
I. Me, age 12
Sure that I was dying, that I’d died,
that the gush of iron smell and black
thick splash signaled all my sin gone
wide,
I pried open the thin, wobbly back
of a record cabinet and crammed
underwear inside. My mother had told
me nothing about my body, damned
to swell, sprout hair, creak and bleed
toward old,
so I hid the stiff, soiled Carters there
among the music, wedged wrong in all
that bladed jazz and blues I didn’t dare
dance to. Ragged spots. I was so small,
but too plumped to rest in my mama’s lap.
Stashing my music, I braced for her slap.
II. You and I, too long ago
Brash adulterous fools, you and I
clash in a rented bed, this tryst ill-
conceived, the longed-for fucking off by
days. I bleed so much it seems a kill
has taken place, my body grieving
its harbor of woman, but do we
slow, think, push apart, stop? No.
Believing
this chaos fated, we’re slow to see
the sheets wide-streaked, scarlet, the
fat drops
peppering carpet, my thighs burned red,
until you deadpan, “Let’s call the cops.
Looks like murder. Someone must be
dead.”
Spent in the midst of our vicious crime,
we phone other lives, lie about time.
III. Her, yesterday
The purplish clot fascinated you,
didn’t it? The way it woke you and
trembled in your jammies like a clue
you hadn’t asked for. You slid your hand
inside the cleft, wiggled fingers stained
with new me, grandma! We rose that
night
and sistered for hours. Questions rained—
Where’s the
egg?—and
answers were your right
and my relief. I took final stock:
Age 11, size 10 feet, my height.
Oh God, my girl, my woman, the shock
of sweet you lurching forward just might
kill me. Let’s ignore the creeping sands.
Let’s laugh, clasp each other’s bloodied
hands.
ALWAYS HUNGRY
Obscene enticement, the entire head of a
hog
in the window of the meat market is
fly-speckled
testament to what man will gobble if it
can be
bought one quarter at a time. Mama and I
will
make sandwiches of this pig’s jellied
noggin,
slicing the cheese of it thin, drenching
snowy
bread with
Tabasco. It is this way with us, girls
of the first wave. We crave chicken
necks, salt
pork, the pickled feet of pigs. We pluck
hairs
from the skin of our suppers, treasure
sizzling
drippings in sinkside jars, sop up what’s
left
with biscuits. Outside of us, cities are
torched.
Policies decide who we are, where we will
live.
But our souls are hastily crafted of fat,
salt
and sugar,
all that Dixie dirt binding us whole.
10-year-old shot three times, but she’s
fine
God’s eye is the camera clutching you,
bewildered in hospital whites, hair
corkscrewing, the holes in your body
mildly panicked, already shrinking.
Who shot you, sweetheart? I don’t
know. I was
playing.
Didn’t you see anybody? I was playing
with my friend Sharon. I was on the
swing,
she was--
Never mind, you didn’t see anybody?
No I ain’t seen nobody but Sharon. I
heard
people yelling though. And my stomach
hurt.
In Boston,
a 10-year-old girl jumps as three
bullets are pumped into her body. I
ain’t seen
nobody, I
told you.
At A. Lincoln Elementary,
an empty seat, the counselors busy
elsewhere,
anyway her grades weren’t that good.
No need to stroke her naps, talk to her
of a
constant love. Let’s plug in the eye of
God.
And go find
Sharon.
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